Blowing up things :)

So I've been back in LA for almost a month now. I wasn't in town for 48 hours before almost having my head blown off by explosive things in a box we threw on the fire :) O lord, yea. I totally should've looked in the box before throwing it on. LOL

Working on getting into some counseling. It's still a day-to-day struggle to keep myself positive, but I'm working on it.

Pin Cushions & Voodoo Dolls

This is #15. Love is just an excuse to get hurt, Life isn't a fairytale. Like the voodoo doll? It was done by a newbie tattoo artist before I left Missouri. I was happy to let her test out on me, & I was just dying for some ink. I think she did friggin amazing for it being her very FIRST tattoo!

Rehab

Today is one more day closer to my going back to Monroe. Sunday is my last day in Missouri/Arkansas. I'm going to miss the scenery, the hiking trails, the beauty of the land. But my alcoholism has taken over. I've tried for years to beat it on my own, to tame it. With my emotional triggers, it's been hard to stay sober for longer than several months in a four year span. It's just time I hand over control for a little while.

I'll be entering rehab soon, for a year-long treatment it's looking like. So, for my readers, few & far between, just cross your fingers. Say a few mantras & ask the Enlightened One for my healing. I'm going to beat this for good. I don't want to be dealing with all this emotional trauma for the rest of my life. I have 24 years of skeletons to work through. I'll stay writing for as long as I can, but it'll be short-lived. Sending out positive thoughts into the universe for all of you.